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Hello Venerable Master, My Dearest Mother: I am a native of Harbin in the Mainland Chinese Province of Heilungkiang. After my marriage, I suffered both physically andmentally when my husband had extramarital affairs, again and again.For the sake of our two daughters, I waited for him to come backto me. Twenty years passed but he showed no signs of change or regret; therefore, divorce could not be averted. Conceding that life had not been kind to me, I began to worship the Buddha in 1985, hoping to be a good person and be rewarded in the next life. My sincerity worked. Life was tough but things went smoothly. In the winter of 1989, for some unknown reason, I suddenly couldn'teat meat so I switched to a vegetarian diet. Everyday I worshippedthe Buddha and chanted His name hoping to attain liberation. Isaved my money for pilgrimages and charity. Towards the end of the summer 1995, a nun from a temple in Qianshan visited my home. She told me that she had seen Supreme Master Ching Hai inher dream. After she returned to her temple, she sent me twocopies of the Supreme Master News magazine and two audiotapes of Your lectures. My family all agreed with the logic and reasoning behind Your teachings. It helped me put down my incidental magical powers, and my younger daughter also became a vegetarian. A month later, we met a Quan Yin practitioner. We borrowed some books and videotapes. Only then did we come to understand the meaning of enlightenment, liberation and Buddhahood. Only then did we realize that Supreme Master Ching Hai is a living Buddha. True Masters are hard to find. The dharma is not easily acquired. I was overjoyed that I had the fortune and affinity in this lifetime to know of You and the Quan Yin Method. I have no idea what merits I have earned in my past lives to deserve this. From that time on, my daughter and I developed unwavering faith in the Quan Yin Method and are now awaiting initiation. The wait for initiation has been full of frustrations and setbacks. I have often cried thinking of Master and yearn to be initiated. One night, I saw Master on a stage. As I cried in penitence, You raised Your right hand and said: "Get up! Master knows it all! "Right after that, the oral ulcer that had troubled me for fifteen years was cured. Ironically anguish filled my heart because although I am not an initiate Master still shouldered my karma. This is more than I deserve. Upon my arrival in Sweden, I found the lifestyle so different from that of China. Meat is commonly served as the main course in meals but I have firmly adhered to my vegetarian diet, hoping earnestly that Master will take compassion on me and initiate me into the Quan Yin Method. Please save me, Supreme Master Ching Hai. I am a coward and always at a loss. I have no wisdom and can never do anything right. I feel miserable and weak; my karma is heavy. Please do not leave me behind. You must take me Home. If I miss this opportunity for initiation, I may really drown in the sea of misery. Mother, I know that You are very busy, and countless sons and daughters are waiting for You. I understand that I should not trouble You with this letter for help. However, I beg You, Mother: never, never, never to forget me, and never to leave me behind. I wish You everlasting good health and happiness.
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